hey all had a nice wee weekend away with my family was quite relaxing but was so strange that i wasnt doing anything or hadnt 2 be sumwhere or was t last for anything. I did miss kids club though.was reading a book called the queens confessions by victoria holt all about marie anointeette it was allk from her point of view which was strange coz id read another novel which was from the main revolutionaries point of view lol just reading over this and i really am a freak lol but well coz i was readin bout her i dreamt last nite i was to marry the future king of frandce n so then i wud b queen of france n ui was very excited bout this as i really was in love with him but ppl were conspirin 2 keep us apart.
weekend also gave me lots of time 2 think about hu i am which fitted in very well with wot clare was saying about identityi feel im becommin sum1 hu i dont wana be n dont know how 2 get away from it. aklso htink that most ppl probably think im very up myself which aint gd but i know i can set myself up 2 think im better than wot i do i suppose its coz i dont wana appear weak or vunerable in any way 2 others i duno
the prayer meetin was also really gd 2nite well done to stephen i really think hes much better at takin them than me coz ppl actually listen and learn from him ive decided 2 give up both pinball which i dearly love n will mean my dad will surely beat me but i do play alot n will be gd 2 give it up also givin up guys!!!!!which lynsie will be disappointed in me for lol i aint gona go out with a guy for 40days even if yhes very attrraxctive n perfect n asks me out lol although it may be unlikely that this will happen if it does i cant go out with him well gona go now n play pinball lol i still have till wed 2 play it i wana have a pancake party on tues if u wana come just pop rouind2 my house from bout 5 onwards till 7
nbyes