ah lol just worked out wot the timin thing is the last one is dat amount of seconds lol i am silly

hey merry christmas to all!!!wow christmas has come n gone for a nother year.i really shud start revisin but i keep pushin it 2 the back of my mind!!!didnt wake up till 2 2day so i felt really bad so i tookthe dog for a big walk my ears r still freezin from the cold!and yet no snow!!i so hope it does!hehe sledgin it stormont wot fun!!i doint understand the whole date thingy it says from my last blog 02:34:10PM so wot deoes dsat mean!!mb im just bein silly well i think im gona get in my electric blanket coz im still cold!!nite nite o if yn1 wants 2 go c matrix wit me let me kmnow coz i still aint seen it!!! byes love me

im in such a lazy mood 2day!!!im hair has gone realy curly if i find some moose i mite stick wit it dat way 4 2nite well c!well i had fun playin tennis last nite i won as usual lol thou h i was beaten in badminton but im sure dat was just a fluke although i did resort 2 cheatin rather badly oops!!! n i tot da service ent really well on sun nite i did enjoy it n it wasnt 2 long or nythin
i went shoppin yesterday wit my mum n bought some rather kul presents for some ppl if they had had mad onty in early learnin i was gona get him for simon but they just had black beard n long john silver!early leanin rocks so much also a saw this mini in the gadget shop which is a remote control one which is so so kul if ny1 was thinkin of gettin me nythin!!i tot it was amzin but i do have a thing bout kul cars i think i shud go out wit sum1 hu is in2 cars so i can learn all bout them i love all da olld ones i have myself a pink chevve i htink lol probably not da rite name its in miniture
i discovered da other day from chattin 2 phil on da bus dat ppl do actually read my blog!!so really mb i shud watch wot i type but i never really give ny names so it wud b hjard 2 tell much
i was wonderin da other day hu i really am n it accorded 2 me da so much of my life is false n dat so much of the world is false. like how many ppl can i say i really know. theres ppl i c all the time but i dont know if i cud even call them my friend. this then lead on 2 how do u define a friend.all far 2 deep thoughts for the hols!!nik n i got in2 a gd confo on da bus 2 dublin bout friends n do u really know ppl.we were 6 hours on da bus together lol so we got a lot of chattin well its lunch time n my dad is insultin me as usual!!!byes merry christmas 2 one n all. btw my tru love gave me 10 drummer s drummin 2day i think!!

last nite was so much fun started with goin 2 bob with some new clotes n just cahttin 2 different ppl which was fun then movin on2 my christmas party which was so lovely!!we were doin karaokee n everythin i had such a gd time. we were there for 3 hours 30 mins n yet the time flew in!!i was so so full though wit r chinese.then the best of all r secret satna presents n i discovered just how devious my friend is. the person hu had me 2 buy for told me dat she had sum1 else n she even went as far as 2 describe in detail wot thre presebnt she boughther was like!!such a liar!!we had each other for secret santa which was nice. i loveee my presents!!!so lovely a magic 8 ball which rocks so much ive always wanted one n 4 some strange reason lol a lil miss bad book n da toy!!strange!!mb shes tryin 2 trell me sumthin. n a lovely blue necklace from accessorise which is s nice n just wot i was wantin n a selection box which shows just how much she knows me!!i got her a ring from pasttimes n a winnie the poo calender thing that u pull of each day n thortones milk n white chocs n the collest of all scissors dat cut ziczac shapes which she said she wantred from da start.n was lovely coz she did seem 2 really love them which is always kul coz i love givin presents. was a really gd nite though but now i have a headache n think im gettin sick which isnt gd the party just got me in the mood for christmas more coz we were singin christmas kareoikee i love my friends n it proves dat u can still have gr8 fun without alchohol n bein single well byes

hey im quite excited bout christmas!!!!impy was gd 2nite it is so easy 2 4get da christmas is bout jesus bday!even though its called Christ mas.
2day is the 3rd day of christmas and 2day my true love brought me 3 french hens. He's already brought me 2 turtle doves and also a partridge in a pear tree. The pears r yummy but the doves make such an awful mess lol. well i have been askin santa 4 a bf 4 christmas all wrapped up on christmas day! stepehn mccan said it was more likely wed have world peace by christmas than foe me 2 have a bf by then!!!tut tut he's so cheeky!!!the murder mysetry p[arty went well last nite i had 2 b mary jane faithless a pop singer was fun i had a blonde wig n a mini skirt
my granda dared me 2 wear da skirt 2 church lol i didnt btwn indiana land was amazin though i know ache all over!""sooo painful n the kids club party rocked i do love kids cant wait till da praise party!i still need 2 buy my secret satan pressie im so bad i aint got it yet n i need it for fri
well nitenite love me

oo yes went 2 yogo 2nite which was fun lol i started laughin sooo much at one point as we had 2 make these noises n when i bent over my bum flashed as my tracksuit bottoms were 2 short lol so then i started laughing again n then durin the relaxin bit at the end my nanny started snoring lol sooooooo funny im glad nik didnt come wit me coz otherwise i wud hjave laughed out loud n offended them all harrys comin wit me this week so i will def laugh!!!was really gd though helped my back n did relax me though we had 2 gather energy n stuff which was a bit strange n made me laugh but iwas very gd at it n have gd balance accordin 2 my mum id actualyl done most of the wee positions b4 from tennis n jujitsu n back excersies, i have a bad back btw fgets sooo sore sometimes im supposed 2 do back excesisess every nite but im always 2 tired but hopefully yogo will help me!!nitenite

hey wow long time since ive written in this.got in a big debate with my rs teach 2day bout demons!it was bout jesus casting the demojns out of the man n then they went in2 the pigs n she was rationalisin it for us n sayin dat the man was actually just mentally ill and they said it was demons but in the bible it says the demons actually spoke to the Jesus and were afraid of him and begged for him to let them go to the pigs out of the man and Jesus let them n she said the pigs also were just frightened by the demon possed man ranting and raving so they ran over the cliff themselves. But then thats saying that the bibkle isntcorrect as its saying the demons didnt speak 2 Jesus and that they didnt go in 2 the pigs so its false. its all a bit over my head but this whole rationalising of the bible has worried me in Rs b4 as it seems to be taking away form the meaning that the parables are trying to get across and creating a new meaning well this is all 2 deep for me so im away 2 bed
nite nite

hey im over my whole wantin 2 be sumthin in skool nxt year coz im gettin a badge by takin drama club how kul !!!!so thats me happy really!the whole bein patient has been gettin a lil better not losin it quite so much. there r 3 main issues in my life dat i need2 work on at the min
1/patience (and with that my temper)
2/my tactlessness
3/boys
i have left it up 2 God 2 hu i go out with n have left it in his hands but its so hard not 2 take it in2 my own hands again i need patience. though i dont agree with wot as stephen mccan thought was planned for me - a call 2 singleness!!!
i got excited again bout gettin married n havin kids i just think it will be such a gift 2 have a child and be a parentn bein santa for ur kids with ur husband wikll b so much fun!ill be mmore hyped than them on christmas day!!
im rather scared bout takin impy on sunday nite wit stephen!!!hmm coz we're tryin 2 get across the importance of prayer mn we want ppl 2 listen 2 us but i think i cud end up loosin control n ppl will then start yellin n then throwin n then ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!hmm lol but b4 hand at the prayer meetin were gettin ppl 2 pray for us b4 we take it so come along n pray for us coz we'll need it!!!
im plannin my mums murder mystery party as well at da mo sooooo much fun though my aunties r away on holiday till 2morrow so i cant arrange a date!im allowed a mate with me so if ny1 wud like 2 come let me no!! im also quite worried bout my mocks coz i think ill fial n then b really disapoointed hmm well nitenite

hey takin su went well 2day was rather scary stuff though!was talkin bout joseph n we watched a clip from da video n how kul is da video!!! i like it!my msn hjas completely disappeared off my computer which is rather upsettin think my dad may have deleted it grr! well in talkin bout joseph i was sayin bout how he was tempted by Potiphars wife and really taht must have been very very hard for joseph to resits as it says day after day she asked him 2 sleep wit her!n joseph it says is a hanesome young man so for him to keep saying no is so strong of him i totally admoire him for that.Also instead of saying no becase he wud get in soooo much trouble if Potiphar found out he said it wud b a great sin against God. this is one focussed guy! im sooo not focussed enuff though i am trying at the moment to be more so. felt him with me 2day alot though dat was coz i was relying on him n gave to him the su n plannin da assembly i knew i cudn t do it without him i was soooo unorganised this mornin n yet by the end of theday i had a typed plan n everythin! thanks God!!!!!i was startin 2 get sttressed but when i did ppl came n said sumthin 2 cheer me up or just even listened 2 my stress which was really kul again thanks 2 God for givin me friend. lol coz otherwise i think id b a bit of a loner
im not feelin as bad 2 day btw my neck n back are still a bit sore but alot alot better.i really have alot 2 thank God for he toally helped me throiugh 2day. i think i need 2 rely on him and give the day 2 him every day rather tahn in just stressful situations. also this girl in my year hu i dont think is a chrisian or nythin like dat n can b quit scary really came 2 su coz kim n i were takin it!!dat was sooo kul n she said she enjoyreed it n wud b comin back nxt weekk so kul!well i have hw 2 do so nitenite

hey well autumn soul was really gd i got some stuff cleared up wit God which was kul. it was diff from other years though it went sooooo quick as well n im sufferin the effects after as im now sick n i can barely move my neck its dat painful! i fee like sum1 has tried 2 strangle me but havent quite succeeded!hmm not a nice feelin also ive jsut read frankenstien n wot an awful n scary booK!!i cant belive i have 2 do cource work on dat!i have 2 go in2 skool 2morrow though as me n kim r havin 2 organise su n its on 2morrow afternoon n we have like nuhtin done ah ah ah ah !pray for me dat ill b in form well enuff 2morrow for the day not 2 b so much of a struggle dat i cant think 2 plan it at da min its quite alot of pain i think il take some painkillers ive slept al day n aint eaten much n i cant work out if my body is hungry n wants sleep or not very confusin well i think i may try 2 eat sumthin nitenite

hey da bloomfield interskools thing was really kul jools da speaker was gd he said we needed 2 pray 4 ppl bout 3 things which is found in epheisans written by paul just b4 his death
1/pray for strength for them
2/pray that Christ wil be in their lives
3/pray taht theyll know Gods awesome love
n i began thinkin bout different mates of mine hurts taht theyre goin through n i realised that if they had all these things all their hurts n bad crap n theirlives wuid go away
its seems so simple really in the midst of this o so complicated world if u focus on God everythin else just seems 2 fit in2 place all those things that u were worryin bout n complinin bout dont seem2 matter ny more all dat matters is God n tahts a gd way 2 be i loose my focus far 2 easily was gd chattin 2 bt bout it 2nite shes so wise lol but i do totalyl respect her as a chrsitian so i do listen 2 wot she has 2 say n respect that it dont mean ill do it just means itll make me think bout it which is gd
i have never really found bei na chrsitan hard b4 just coz ive grown up with it i guess but this year been strugglin more n feelin v tested again the tennis conversations r goin well though i feel so unprepared n inexperiecned 2 anwser their quesitons they were sayin bout how the world began n how they belived n the big bang theory n i didnt know how 2 back up dat it was wrong when asked i just said i dont belive dat i belive it was God hu created the world. i dunno i just feel so inadecate at the moinute i know i also have Gods streght 2 support me but i still feel so alone sumtimes specially in skool.mb coz im just a loner lol hmm i dunno i just dont feel i have ny1 im mates wit my age hu i can chat bout God stuff 2 n i really want that jjust i dunon 2 have sum1 2 share how gr8 he is with n decesions ive made i dunno mb im just bein selfish
well nitenite lookin 4ward 2 autumn soul

nope things did not seem 2 change lol o well i dont think ny1 reads my blog cept for my cousin!lol i think im becomming a geek n i dont like it one lil bit but i dont think im smart enuff 2 be a geek really. but im o so excited bout autumn soul possibly for the wrong reasons but im working on that its very difficlut though but i want my focus to be on God that weekend. just 2 get 2 spend some quality time with him n b strengthened by him. ivve been tryin 2 go 2 bed early for autumn soul but that aint been happenein hmm well i think i may waatch omse tv was plannin 2 work but na!

hmm ok the wee blog thing is tellin me 2 republish my blog in order 2 c changes so here it goes

hey was tryin 2 work out how 2 do commments there but was unsuccsseful i think the only person hu reads my blog is my cousin so hey andrew gd luck with the girl u fancy!oo da whole geel portrsaytal is ok coz the girl said it 2 every1 in the class not just me phew but then this other girl said i look like a real swot this year but she meant it as a compliment!i really am enjoying all my subjects and am now even more confused at wot 2 study at uni!coz i cud do art rs english lit or history coz i enjoy them all its very hard!we were talking bout hu is gona take a gap year n there were like 3 ppl me bein one of them.she was all surprised dat i had it all planned. i at the minute wud like 2 do TOM team on my year out n wud like 2 do the travelling team if i dont get in coz its not wot God has planned then ill have 2 look at other different missionary type things i cud do. c i really ewant 2 travel a bit n am def takin a gap year theres no way im goin straight back in2 education as much as i am enjoying it. alsop im thinkin surin dat gap year ill get a clearer idea of wot i want 2 do if ny1 has ny ideas of wot i wud bgd at let me know also can some1 tell me how 2 get comment boxes n post a link>?normally im quite gd on computers but im quite stuck!well as usual i apologise 4 my bad spellin n am now gona look at some1 elses blog nite

hey school is so tiring findin it quite hard at the minute for various reasons none of them school work. and this girl n one of my classes who i dont really no said 2 me 2 day dont tell the teacher dat we have a test 2day!so i must portray myseklf as being somewot a geek but as if im gona remind da teach dat we had a test i didnt wana do thje test either!!!!hmm was quite upsetting though i suopose ppl cud think worse things about me. ive been gettin quite paranoid lately also as i think ppl r laughing at me but the thing is i dont think im just bein paranouid i really think they r which is upsetting again.but i am goin well with God he is the most important thing in my life at the minuite 2 me which is really gd n ive decided that i want 2 be a woman of God n be known for my inner beauty rather than outer whoich is really hard in a world were looks are everythin also i do want 2 be admired for my looks as well n for guys 2 thinkk yeah she gd lookin so its a fite inside me as 2 which i want more. and 2day this guy i know when he asked me y i wud nt go out wit this guy n i siad it was coz we werent ag dchrsitain guy which lead on 2 me sayin bout wot i belive which was really kul but then he said i just dont belive n all dat stuff sorry if ive offended u in not n ijust said i aint offended as ur entitled 2 ur opinion n i didnt know wot 2 say like coz i didnt wana shove it down his throught sayi n o this is the turht because bla de bla i dont know if i handled the situtation wrongly but was still kul talkin 2 him bout my faith been gettin loads of oppertunitys like dat lately n i feel like im muckin them up.but one thing its made me realise is dat u really need 2 be clear n wot u think and wot u believe otherwise how can u share wot u believe!ive been v glad ive already made quite alot of decesions bout my chrsitian life lately n ovwer the course of my chrsitian journey so im already claer on wot i think bout aloit of things.though here r still loads i have no idea about.but i know i ll have 2 get wot i think sorted hmm well nitenie

hey i had a great hallowe3nn party last nite well i tot it was great nyway thank u all for comingn some1 left there fone behind though... my house is quite cold at he minute brrr!
ive deicided i wud like 2 b know for my inner beauty rather than outward which is reaklyl hard as i still do want ppl 2 think i look nice lol ive also decided im gona try 2 stop talkin bout guys so much as i do it wayyy 2 much i think to a certain degree its ok but i do it too much n i dont want 2 be know for dat though i know i already am still nefver 2 late 2 change
i dont understand y ppl drink so much as i had fun last nite n i had no alchohol bnut i dunno coz i aint ever got pissed so i dont know wot its like but ppl say how crap theyve felt after bein sick n dat n i dont understand wot the point is mb some1 cud explain it im not meaning 2 sound patronisin i just honestly dont understand wot the attaction is. when u can still have fun without it.hmm

hey isnt it lovely being off school?ive been being very lazy though but i just wrote a 4 page essay so dat makes up for it.was trying on formal dresses today what fun!there were 3 lovely ones!this black elgant one which went straight down although it wudnt b right for a formal dress was lovely then this pink one with criss cross at the back and the one i liked the best was a black one that went puffy at the bottom beautiful!alll i need is a formal to go to................. i bought brownie mix 2day as well though i want 2 find some1 2 make them with so i dont eat them all, myself they are delicious when made laura g n i made them last time and nearyl ate them all!o u r all formalyl inviteed 2 my hawloweenm party on the 31st of octo er at 8 fancy dress of cource i bettter decided on my costume cud b a she devil or an angel hmm but i want 2 b sumthin origional!
the prayer meetin last nite was great not so much for my own benefit but from talking to other ppl was gd lego was gd as well on sunday nite this week we'll be using stones and water fun fun! and memeber to pray for tori every nite at 7 im afraidc i havent been very gd at that been forgetting i do pray every day for her just not at 7 i wonder if that matters?aklthoguh it does mean that i am not disiplined enough.i also had decided to do a bible study every day when ive been off and that hasnt happened yet either!not gd i startedn the other day but then my mum came n n asked me 2 watch a dvd with her. hard 2 know wot 2 prioritice spending time with my mum or God?really it shud be God i know though i also want 2 spend "quality time" with my mum.hmm!o we didnt win the hopuse plays bex house won though i got 2 haVE A moustache which was very exciting!
byes love hannah

hey house plauys r tomoorrow ahhhhhhhh!!!!!though im gettin 2 wear a berree which is very excitin!!!r dvd player rocks its rather kul!was wathcin dare devil n was really lookin 4ward 2 seein it but its crap!so bad was such a gd storyline 2 but theuy messed it up big style!hmm!oo adam was realyl gd on sunday nite speak in as was julia well done congrats!nitenite

hey my house play is aactually beginning to take shape its kul o hey 2 my cousin andrew hes in scotland at da mo hes very smart theyre family got the brains lol prayer meetin was kul we planted bulbs 2nite next week lego!so datll b kul do all come da turn out is gettin better every week keep it comin ppl!also pray 4 tori every nite at 7!!pass it round at at 7 she gets physio on a wednesaday!so plz pray for her she really really needs it at the minute!
o i got a kul new mickey mouse top i love it i love it!well i have 2 go now but nite nite i also got new straighters im afraid ive been a bit material girl which ia int sure how gd dat is though im not lovin trhem more dan God or nythin so i think its ok byes

hey just back form panto was fun its peter pan i want to be tiger lily coz she was the kulest but i think ill probably just b lost boy 6 or sumthin hmm fun fun!but i ve decided i want 2 throw a dinner dance for the more mature members of the church with all the old songs like frank sinatra playing as well as the other members like me lol. o n if ny1 has ny more ideas for the pray meetings at 7 15 on sunday nites plz let me know!!my daddy bought me roses the other day yellow and red they were so pretty i liked the yellow ones best.
toris was gd on thursday more ppl shud go though the blairs really appriciate it as does tori. also prayer on sunday nite went well o dat reminds me 2 pray for my shell person helens bay was kul goin down on the beach its so nice n peacfull hearing the waves like i cud really sense Gods presence there just sumthin so restful.

hey i had a lovely lie in this mornin coz no kids club but i missed it!i still feel tired n lack energy wheras kids club wakens me up.but i have a nice lil day planned going 2 helens bay for the shells then for a swim then for some hot choc lovely then poss out for my tea n town then mannafest a nice wee day though i know i have hw loike loadsss of it so realyl i shud b doing that ahh ah ah!gettin stressed also bout house plauys its in a weeks time n r play is crap. well im away for my lunch i do apologise that this was not a very interesting blog entry today but then is it ever?

hey we learnt bout how the chrsitans were percecuted 2day is rs pretty gruesome stuff i felt rahter sick after n was shaking at the thought of some of things they went theough!n it got me thinkin wud i renounce my faith with so much pain n tortute or wud i stand firm till the end? i dont really know i wud obviously hope i wud stay firm n strong to the end ubt it is all so horrible and awful i odnt know i i cud stick the pain! also i lead a very easy life being a chrisitain compared 2 what it was like then. the mos i have 2 put up with is slagging which is nothing really when u think about it. and the thing is there is still chrisitnas today hu suffer great persecution n torure becase of their faith!
how can ppl let this happen?this is 2003 and yet ppl r still behaving like barbarains n the wolrd leaders r turning a blind eye to the cruelty in the countries isn that a much better reason that oil?i have lead such a sheltered life n have had such an easy time of it n there r ppl out theren dying for their faith. wow ive found something i feel strongly about n cud argue about generally i have bno rel opinion n wot not say im an opintiionated person. hmm my spelling is atronchiouys

House plays n school are not goin well lol r play is soo crap n I know hardly any lines also its really hard as one of the house ppl hu never comes 2 rehearsal always criticisms everything n a harsh manner n I've hard 2 hold my tongue a few times 2 stop myself bein rude.
I've decided now that I want 2 be school liberian instead of deputy house captain really I just want a badge!I wud also like a nice necklace that I can wear just casually as I don't have any at the mintute so im necklace less just a hint if any1 spontaneously wants 2 buy me anything. I do so love getting and giving presents. We have started planning r Christmas party in school already it sounds so kul!
im so tired lately n have a constant headache not gd its like a dull ache which wont go away n makes me feel dizzy o dear i dont think im well but im sure ill be fine.we had su 2day n this ppl from om came 2 talk 2 us about mission on this ship it sounded quite kul but i didnt feelparticularly called towards it other than that it sounded kul i really do want 2 travel though n want adventure n excitement which at the minute my lil life doe not seem 2 hold for me i feel so sheltered n part of me wants 2 break away from it though anohter part is scared.
o i also thought my confo with stepehn was kul the other day hes such a man of God n it was certianly very challenging to talk 2 him. i love tlaking on the phone with ppl though coz of txtin that rarely happens now. i think i may do it more as the price of txt msgs with 02 have gone up 2 12p which means u can only get 8 msgs n a pound n 80 n a tenner so it does make a gd bit of difference so im bein more miser like n my txts.well im goin 4 a wee sleep now nite nite

hey im always so tired from school!the prayer meeting went well i thought on sunday at 715(just getting that in there) we used plasticince 2 bee creative and make something to pray about was fun. next week we will be using shells so im going down 2 helens bay on sat lookin forward to dat give my doggie a wee walkie n then go out for coffee after with my mum a lovely sat afternoon!though somehow i get this feeling in my stomach which suggests i shud really be using the time to work but im not behind though shud b doing more art.i dont know how 2 impress upon ppl in impy the importance of prayer its viewed as many ppl as a chore n a boring task so stephen n i r trying to livin pryaer up a bit so ppl will start 2 come to the prayer meetings n realise just how important pray is n how much can be achieved with it. if youve got any ideas of what we cud do on sunday nights at 715 b4 impy let me or stephen no!we have nxt week sorted n ive an idea for the week after but after dat we're stuck so plz help us!
o btw i got my work experien e sorted im going to yfc with this lady called carole who ive met b4 n goin round different teams n workin in the office n stuff!its kul coz this way i get 2 c wot all sorts of things r like thoiugh im still no clearer to wot im gona be!i tot of an editor commisioner which sounds kul but u have 2 be under dog 4 years n years b4 u reach dat!i feel i have the potential n me 2 be carrer orianated but i dont want 2 be as i want 2 be God orianated!hmm byes

well 2day in skool we got r panoramic photo taken of us!as i quite like getting my photo taken i didnt mind 2 much BUT one slight problem.... it was pouring!and we had 2 stand n the rain for an hour on top of this stand thing watching as our shirts gradually get more and more see through!by the end the photo we were all indecent with all colours of bras showing to the world now to be recored in this photo for years to come!but we got to go home after that as we kicked up some fuss but we had 2 come back in again.
helping organise the prayer aspect of impy has really helped 2 keep me focused on God throughtout the day. instead of just day dreamin when i get boreed n class i start thinking bout waht we can do to increase prayer and then that gets me thinking about God and asking him for help which is kul! i quite enjoyed su today we watched friends in it and then got questiones on it about selfishness. i am quite a selfish person really although i try not to be and when im being selfish im not usually aware of it. well my teas ready although im not actually hungry at all for it anyway bye

hey im really excited bout Gods plans for me at the minute i really cant wait though i know ill have 2 be patient though as most of u know patience is one of the things i struggle with!remember 2 ask clare wot she thinks ur potential is n remember she belives every1 in impy has potential n there r no acceptions!i was very grumpy this mornin n was the toal dramam queen when leaving the house this monrin as i had so much stuff n my hands n cudnt get the door open so i just slammed it all down lol i was extremely moddy but i wasa blre 2 laugh at it afterwards n apologised 2 my dad for bein so grumpy. at least now when im bein grumpy im aware of it n try 2 bring myself out of it. i was just sayin 2 God bout it n then singin im a lil yellow fish n my head to make myself snap out of it.
i do love laura g she was nice n went 2 the shop with me 2day but i rewarded her with a black jack bar.(she asked me 2 mention her in it)

if you have any ideas about prayer ideas for impact or wotever txt me or stephen n let us know as clare has put us incharge of da prayer aspect!scary or wot!She told me 2day we have a free run with it wow so much power lol just if you cud b praying for stephen n i fopr ideas n things n when we're leadin it on sunday at 715 b4 impact!another reminder for you all to come! i do belive that prayer is such an imporatnt part of our lives read phillipians 4 v 6 which says sumthin like "dont worry about anything instead prayer about everything" ive got in the habit now of chattin to God about everything i may start by thinkin about it in my own head n then id turn that in2 a conversatoin with God. prayer is conversatoin with God which means we have 2 listen as well as speak otherwise its a one sided conversatoin im vetry guilty of that as i find it hard 2 concentrate when im trying top lidsten 2 God as my mind wanders. o dats another thing we cud look at how 2 listen 2 God this blog thing realy works n sorting out your thoughts!
well i think ive said more than enuff for 2day nyes laura i know i cant type but im sure ull get the general drift byes

ive been quite fed up at school at the mo but i tink dats just coz ive been gettin in a rather lazy mood!need2 get myself outa it like this weekedn i did no work wotsoever n i cud have been gettin on wit my art hmm!im annoyed with myseklf now. 2day my relative from australis-my 2nd cousin was over visitin n she says i can come visit her n stay whenver which is soooo kul!i wud love 2 go there n live there for a year or sumthin wud b mad!n my great uncle bill owns a rainforest there how kul?!well i tot so nyway
im away 2 bedybyes coz my tummys sore poor me nitenite

i just got my hair cut loevly at david lloyd but im paying for it outa my money its all nice n layered n slightly shorter than usual but i like it!ive been feeling ver very tired lately this afternoon i was just readin n then i had the sudden urge 2 sleep n so i did.i still have no idea wot 2 do for my work experiecne every1 keeps giving me conflicting advice im so confused!n i have prayed bout it but so far 2 no avail.
i was having a great conversation with my friend las tnite bout wot itll be like when get married n have r kids n stuff!i still cant belive there will be a person growing inside me!mind blowin stuff!i never planned my wedding as a child n when we made up plays n stuff i was always da guy lol i used 2 play calamity jane with my best friend kelly n i loved bein calamity jane wheras she prefered bein katy.but im fairly getin in2 the swing of bein a girl now lol plannin my weddings buyin new clothes gettin my hair cut lol it is fun growing up though i still feel like a lil girl.byes

well 2day was a strange day!In art today i was squeezing this bottle of black paint into the wee container thing n at first it wudnt come out so i was just squeezin it n then suddendly bloughaa n the whole bottle uddenly squireted out all over me n on the walls n the ceilin n i was in a room wit a bunch on 4th years n they all just started at me n not one of them helped i was in shock lol was so funny n it turened out the paint wasnt black at all it was actually prussion blue!!!!well at least i made every1 laugh my art teacher every time she looks at me bursts out laughin hmm!The thing was though when i was gettin changed in the loos i was tellin God all bout it n knew he was smilin at me. Also i cud have bust in2 tears coz i was so shocked at so much paint n was feelin sorry for myself but tellin God made me see the funny side of it so i cud just laugh at myself! luckily i had my tracksuit with me change in2 coz i had cricket 2day
it was rather fun cricket though im not very gd tennis was fun as well i do love harriet my tennis friend she's just so lovely but it was kul 2day coz megan started askin me bout y i had decided only 2 date good chrisitan boys n was askin me quesiotns bout bein a chrisitan n i was able 2 anwser also last nite when i was out for a meal with friends my friend waqs saying how all christian shud b millionarres if they belive it n she has also said this but ive never been strong enuff 2 back up wot i belive but i was able 2! n back my opinion dat dats wrong up with scriptures it was kul!well nitenite

well im up at david lloyd using the computer v kul the keys are really easy to use!im feeling very tired today and fell asleep just before i came out!also my battery on my cdman ran out so i gave up quickly on the treadmill i really need my sum41 to keep me going!ive decided im really going to stick to only going out with good chrisitan boys but there seem to be no single attractive ones out there so im just having to be patient and wait for huever God has chosen for me!its very hard having to wait and be patient but im just havin to rely on God. I KNOW he has some1 for me!mainly as im terrified of the dark and cudnt live in a house by myself also i really really want to have kids i cant wait!well im going to go buy some chocolate now i think i deserve it then curl up n bed mb with my hot water bottle n read harry pottor!lovely!
byes love hannah

im feelin rather tired at the minute and very cold!poor me!all my bein a gd chrisitan girl was really put to the test last nite!it was really hard n i felt so crap ubt i am pleased to say i was able to come out on top of the it!im having to deciede wot work experience to do for nxt week and i have no idea!these r my thought so far
-journalism as i love english and history
arciology-as i wud olve 2 find secret passages n i love history n like rs
teaching-as i love children
youth worker-which was something bec suggested to me

see i want to serve Gofd and do what he wants me to do cept i dont know what he's guiding me to do!ive prayred n prayed bout it n asked advice from ppl but ive just been givin lots of conflictin ideas!its just so hard!if uve got any ideas let me know plz !!!!byes

hey well i have decided i am going to be a gd girl and retract my comment about random snogging made earlier in my blog.n im just gona go 4 a gd (attractive)christian boy. o bt ur blog was really gd it did help!this week has gone so quickly!i cant belive its friday 2morrow i realyl want 2 see down with love it looks class.
i was in beattie's car 2nite outside CI while she went inside 2 collect her cheque n u may say fair enuff so wot but i am terrified of the dark!so i was crappin mysekf n beattie it seemed to me took agess n i was facing a dark forest so i prayed"!i prayed so so hard lol for protectoin coz i know it says "you have nothing to fear but me" or something like dat. so that helped me through it!this is one of the reasons i have decided God has a husband for me coz theres no way i cud live in a house on my own i get sacerd even in my bedroom at nite
well i better go up there now! nitenite

another long and tiring day of school!school is so draining lately coz u have to listen and concentrate all the time its soo hard!i have an rs trip on wednesday to go round city hall and stormont with catholic school girls from dublin fun fun though storomont presby r proiving us with pizzas from capers and tray bakes!i wonder if theyll be really gd n show us up?they r supposed 2 have really long skirts n stuff.o just 2 say that i love jenny gregg as she gave me the cutest lil phone cover o lil miss naughty!its so cute n i love it!i got through 2 the 2nd audition for house plays n had 2 audition 2day!first time i had 2 be a posh english school girl so i did it taking the piss coz u had 2 be really enthuisiastic n go JUbilatee etc!this time i was a rebelious teenager i dont know if ive made it in but i want 2 be as i want 2 be deputy house captain!
i am in the orchestra and go to su and if i get in ill be in the house plays all i need is a sport.I decided today oi was going to go 2 cricket in school when i told my dad this he laughed at me and said i was trying 2 make some sort of a statment!!i dont see whats so funny about it!im quite a gd wee cricket player n have a gd bowl lol of cource ive only really played with jaime!if any1 wud like 2 help me learn cricket i wud b much obliged as i dont want to appear to stupid!byes

hey well i really got alot out of 8am this morning i really felt challenged 2 sort my life out Gods been speakin 2 me over the last few days challenging me about different things n today what hes been saying to me has just all kinda come together!its kul when u get 2 c a part of his bigger picture at the time u may have been like y on earth does God want me 2 do that whats the point in that then when u see the point its like ur eyes have been opened!byes

im really liking the new msn at the moment!i totally stuffed garth in checkers the other day ill have 2 play some1 hu can actually play nxt time!i challenged last nite to make it up with any1 i have a grudge against was hard 2 swallow my pride n do it i have realised i have alot of pride which is wrong!
kids club was great fun this mornin!i really love it although it means i cant do jujitsu or hockey but kids club gives me enough excersise as it is but i do love the kids dearly!
my carrers teacher is gona havelots of fun with me coz i have no idea wot i wana do with my life!n work expereince is in jan so i dont no were i waan go 4 it!mb the bbc!dat wud b kul.if any1 has any ideas of what they think i wud b gd at plz email or txt me coz im a bit stuck!byes

well i had a great time 2nite i was amazin at hide n seek lol i hid behind the hat stand go me n i won but phil n bec started snoggin infront of me yuk!!but all n all it was a gd nite though it was a terrible day as i cudnt move my neck at akll 2 the left n was n agony n had 2 get an ice pack!i felt so stupid walkin round skool with it!ui do seem very accident prone!n do u know how i hurt m neck?by coughin!i had 2 take pain killers but the thing is i cant swallow so i had the nurse n stitches at my attempts!i do seem 2 have made ppl laugh today.....well im away 2 bed now i have kids club n its gona b sore 2 sleep poor me lol nite nite hope u all sleep well

Well im home from another exciting and thrilling day from school!my throats still sore though not as sore as this mornin!im just back from orchestra n i was all chuffed coz i cud actually keep up a new first for me!grade 6 is so much harder than grade 5 though im really lovin playin my violin at the min.ive decided that if i can play this spanish piece my teach has set me then i am talented!art was gd fun 2day i used charchol my favourite n i ended up black as usual. i just dont understand how some people can come away from art after using charchol totally pristine!accordin to the teacher im expressionistic hmm im hopin thats a gd thing!
rs is i have decided the most boring subject ever!the teach just drones on n on n then asks questoins untill we get it rite its like some kinda torture!historys gettin a lil better and more enjoyable though theres a total swot in the class n i cant help but feel satified if she gets sumthin wrong that i get rite!
i just realised that every1 else tlaks bout christian stuff in theirs n so far i havent!ive been feelin quite attacked by the devil at da mo so im puttin on my armour everyday!the sentence from ephesions-"when you r angry do not sin n b sure to stop being angry befor the end of the day" has been very much with me as im sure some ppl will understand y!ive been awfully quick 2 flair up on ppl n cant quite control my temper it aint gd coz i have quite a wee temper when i get riled well i think this is long enuff already n im gona go n eat my choc muffin my nanny brought me!i love my nanny!
byes

well its a dreary thursday morning and my throat has seized up n im findin it hard 2 speak!yipee im feelin so great!but at least its thursday so i can just keep thinking tomorrows friday n that gets me back on track again!see i cant get sick at the minute as i have a hospital appointment nxt week 2 see if i need my tonsils out n i really dont want them out it will mean takin time of skool which i cant afford as im wantin 2 do well plus the pain factor!i was told the other day that i wasnt smart enough to get into queens this was a shovck to my system as ive always wanted 2 go there!well see!well time for school byes

wow ive finally discovered how to post another blog!yipee!ive just discovered a certain stepehn mccan has been spreading my lil ecrets told to him in confidence!im not a happy hannah!though to be fair the lil secrets werent dat secret it appears that everyone already knows everything anyway!anyway my life aint dat excitin to have a proper secret
well im loving school at the minute i get 12 frees a week n im doing all the subjects i enjoy so its quite lovely!the rest of my life is also going ok im been going to the gym alot so that makes me feel gd about myself!the whole guy frount is the only thing which isn't really happening for me and at the moment im not even sure if i want anything serious to happen with any1 id rather just u know get off wit some 1 with no strings attatched i sound like some kinda slut o dear!well i better head now ill probably regret writting this it shows up just how immature i am!byes

hey well im not even sure if im gona tell ny1 i have this yet lol coz i feel a bit rare doin it hmm we shall see!ive decided today i really need to get fit like hard core gym sorta stuff but then i have decided this before n yet im still not fit do u ever find you make promises to yourself with all the gd intention of keeping them but then a couple of months later you discover you havent kept it up?a while back i decided to do 50 situps every nite n so i did 4 a couple of months but now i dont.and i wonder why did i stop when was the change over period between me keeping my promise and not?im onto promises coz bt was talkin bout that in youth church today she was very gd!there r so many promises ive made to God and havent kept them and i wonder with that why did i break it?hmm dat was all to deep for me byes love hannah