hey im over my whole wantin 2 be sumthin in skool nxt year coz im gettin a badge by takin drama club how kul !!!!so thats me happy really!the whole bein patient has been gettin a lil better not losin it quite so much. there r 3 main issues in my life dat i need2 work on at the min
1/patience (and with that my temper)
2/my tactlessness
3/boys
i have left it up 2 God 2 hu i go out with n have left it in his hands but its so hard not 2 take it in2 my own hands again i need patience. though i dont agree with wot as stephen mccan thought was planned for me - a call 2 singleness!!!
i got excited again bout gettin married n havin kids i just think it will be such a gift 2 have a child and be a parentn bein santa for ur kids with ur husband wikll b so much fun!ill be mmore hyped than them on christmas day!!
im rather scared bout takin impy on sunday nite wit stephen!!!hmm coz we're tryin 2 get across the importance of prayer mn we want ppl 2 listen 2 us but i think i cud end up loosin control n ppl will then start yellin n then throwin n then ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!hmm lol but b4 hand at the prayer meetin were gettin ppl 2 pray for us b4 we take it so come along n pray for us coz we'll need it!!!
im plannin my mums murder mystery party as well at da mo sooooo much fun though my aunties r away on holiday till 2morrow so i cant arrange a date!im allowed a mate with me so if ny1 wud like 2 come let me no!! im also quite worried bout my mocks coz i think ill fial n then b really disapoointed hmm well nitenite

hey takin su went well 2day was rather scary stuff though!was talkin bout joseph n we watched a clip from da video n how kul is da video!!! i like it!my msn hjas completely disappeared off my computer which is rather upsettin think my dad may have deleted it grr! well in talkin bout joseph i was sayin bout how he was tempted by Potiphars wife and really taht must have been very very hard for joseph to resits as it says day after day she asked him 2 sleep wit her!n joseph it says is a hanesome young man so for him to keep saying no is so strong of him i totally admoire him for that.Also instead of saying no becase he wud get in soooo much trouble if Potiphar found out he said it wud b a great sin against God. this is one focussed guy! im sooo not focussed enuff though i am trying at the moment to be more so. felt him with me 2day alot though dat was coz i was relying on him n gave to him the su n plannin da assembly i knew i cudn t do it without him i was soooo unorganised this mornin n yet by the end of theday i had a typed plan n everythin! thanks God!!!!!i was startin 2 get sttressed but when i did ppl came n said sumthin 2 cheer me up or just even listened 2 my stress which was really kul again thanks 2 God for givin me friend. lol coz otherwise i think id b a bit of a loner
im not feelin as bad 2 day btw my neck n back are still a bit sore but alot alot better.i really have alot 2 thank God for he toally helped me throiugh 2day. i think i need 2 rely on him and give the day 2 him every day rather tahn in just stressful situations. also this girl in my year hu i dont think is a chrisian or nythin like dat n can b quit scary really came 2 su coz kim n i were takin it!!dat was sooo kul n she said she enjoyreed it n wud b comin back nxt weekk so kul!well i have hw 2 do so nitenite

hey well autumn soul was really gd i got some stuff cleared up wit God which was kul. it was diff from other years though it went sooooo quick as well n im sufferin the effects after as im now sick n i can barely move my neck its dat painful! i fee like sum1 has tried 2 strangle me but havent quite succeeded!hmm not a nice feelin also ive jsut read frankenstien n wot an awful n scary booK!!i cant belive i have 2 do cource work on dat!i have 2 go in2 skool 2morrow though as me n kim r havin 2 organise su n its on 2morrow afternoon n we have like nuhtin done ah ah ah ah !pray for me dat ill b in form well enuff 2morrow for the day not 2 b so much of a struggle dat i cant think 2 plan it at da min its quite alot of pain i think il take some painkillers ive slept al day n aint eaten much n i cant work out if my body is hungry n wants sleep or not very confusin well i think i may try 2 eat sumthin nitenite

hey da bloomfield interskools thing was really kul jools da speaker was gd he said we needed 2 pray 4 ppl bout 3 things which is found in epheisans written by paul just b4 his death
1/pray for strength for them
2/pray that Christ wil be in their lives
3/pray taht theyll know Gods awesome love
n i began thinkin bout different mates of mine hurts taht theyre goin through n i realised that if they had all these things all their hurts n bad crap n theirlives wuid go away
its seems so simple really in the midst of this o so complicated world if u focus on God everythin else just seems 2 fit in2 place all those things that u were worryin bout n complinin bout dont seem2 matter ny more all dat matters is God n tahts a gd way 2 be i loose my focus far 2 easily was gd chattin 2 bt bout it 2nite shes so wise lol but i do totalyl respect her as a chrsitian so i do listen 2 wot she has 2 say n respect that it dont mean ill do it just means itll make me think bout it which is gd
i have never really found bei na chrsitan hard b4 just coz ive grown up with it i guess but this year been strugglin more n feelin v tested again the tennis conversations r goin well though i feel so unprepared n inexperiecned 2 anwser their quesitons they were sayin bout how the world began n how they belived n the big bang theory n i didnt know how 2 back up dat it was wrong when asked i just said i dont belive dat i belive it was God hu created the world. i dunno i just feel so inadecate at the moinute i know i also have Gods streght 2 support me but i still feel so alone sumtimes specially in skool.mb coz im just a loner lol hmm i dunno i just dont feel i have ny1 im mates wit my age hu i can chat bout God stuff 2 n i really want that jjust i dunon 2 have sum1 2 share how gr8 he is with n decesions ive made i dunno mb im just bein selfish
well nitenite lookin 4ward 2 autumn soul

nope things did not seem 2 change lol o well i dont think ny1 reads my blog cept for my cousin!lol i think im becomming a geek n i dont like it one lil bit but i dont think im smart enuff 2 be a geek really. but im o so excited bout autumn soul possibly for the wrong reasons but im working on that its very difficlut though but i want my focus to be on God that weekend. just 2 get 2 spend some quality time with him n b strengthened by him. ivve been tryin 2 go 2 bed early for autumn soul but that aint been happenein hmm well i think i may waatch omse tv was plannin 2 work but na!

hmm ok the wee blog thing is tellin me 2 republish my blog in order 2 c changes so here it goes

hey was tryin 2 work out how 2 do commments there but was unsuccsseful i think the only person hu reads my blog is my cousin so hey andrew gd luck with the girl u fancy!oo da whole geel portrsaytal is ok coz the girl said it 2 every1 in the class not just me phew but then this other girl said i look like a real swot this year but she meant it as a compliment!i really am enjoying all my subjects and am now even more confused at wot 2 study at uni!coz i cud do art rs english lit or history coz i enjoy them all its very hard!we were talking bout hu is gona take a gap year n there were like 3 ppl me bein one of them.she was all surprised dat i had it all planned. i at the minute wud like 2 do TOM team on my year out n wud like 2 do the travelling team if i dont get in coz its not wot God has planned then ill have 2 look at other different missionary type things i cud do. c i really ewant 2 travel a bit n am def takin a gap year theres no way im goin straight back in2 education as much as i am enjoying it. alsop im thinkin surin dat gap year ill get a clearer idea of wot i want 2 do if ny1 has ny ideas of wot i wud bgd at let me know also can some1 tell me how 2 get comment boxes n post a link>?normally im quite gd on computers but im quite stuck!well as usual i apologise 4 my bad spellin n am now gona look at some1 elses blog nite

hey school is so tiring findin it quite hard at the minute for various reasons none of them school work. and this girl n one of my classes who i dont really no said 2 me 2 day dont tell the teacher dat we have a test 2day!so i must portray myseklf as being somewot a geek but as if im gona remind da teach dat we had a test i didnt wana do thje test either!!!!hmm was quite upsetting though i suopose ppl cud think worse things about me. ive been gettin quite paranoid lately also as i think ppl r laughing at me but the thing is i dont think im just bein paranouid i really think they r which is upsetting again.but i am goin well with God he is the most important thing in my life at the minuite 2 me which is really gd n ive decided that i want 2 be a woman of God n be known for my inner beauty rather than outer whoich is really hard in a world were looks are everythin also i do want 2 be admired for my looks as well n for guys 2 thinkk yeah she gd lookin so its a fite inside me as 2 which i want more. and 2day this guy i know when he asked me y i wud nt go out wit this guy n i siad it was coz we werent ag dchrsitain guy which lead on 2 me sayin bout wot i belive which was really kul but then he said i just dont belive n all dat stuff sorry if ive offended u in not n ijust said i aint offended as ur entitled 2 ur opinion n i didnt know wot 2 say like coz i didnt wana shove it down his throught sayi n o this is the turht because bla de bla i dont know if i handled the situtation wrongly but was still kul talkin 2 him bout my faith been gettin loads of oppertunitys like dat lately n i feel like im muckin them up.but one thing its made me realise is dat u really need 2 be clear n wot u think and wot u believe otherwise how can u share wot u believe!ive been v glad ive already made quite alot of decesions bout my chrsitian life lately n ovwer the course of my chrsitian journey so im already claer on wot i think bout aloit of things.though here r still loads i have no idea about.but i know i ll have 2 get wot i think sorted hmm well nitenie

hey i had a great hallowe3nn party last nite well i tot it was great nyway thank u all for comingn some1 left there fone behind though... my house is quite cold at he minute brrr!
ive deicided i wud like 2 b know for my inner beauty rather than outward which is reaklyl hard as i still do want ppl 2 think i look nice lol ive also decided im gona try 2 stop talkin bout guys so much as i do it wayyy 2 much i think to a certain degree its ok but i do it too much n i dont want 2 be know for dat though i know i already am still nefver 2 late 2 change
i dont understand y ppl drink so much as i had fun last nite n i had no alchohol bnut i dunno coz i aint ever got pissed so i dont know wot its like but ppl say how crap theyve felt after bein sick n dat n i dont understand wot the point is mb some1 cud explain it im not meaning 2 sound patronisin i just honestly dont understand wot the attaction is. when u can still have fun without it.hmm